On the Eve of Your Return
On the eve of your return, there is so much going through my mind and my heart.
I can’t even begin to imagine how different the last few months of our lives have been. I almost wish that life could have stopped when you left. Instead, we had to learn how to manage our day to day lives without one another. While I know that made me stronger, it made me realize that without you, I am only half of what I am capable of.
We have only been able to talk for moments during your time away and although I tried to update you on as much as I can, there are many things that didn’t make the cut or I simply forgot about. You’ll probably hear quite a few, “oh yeah I forgot to mention that.”
I have replaced your setting at the dinner table, towel in the bathroom and started practicing staying on my side of the bed. I had taken them away the day you left so it wasn’t a constant reminder that you were not there. I have to admit I am looking forward to reassigning you some weekly chores like the garbage!
If you thought I was good at reorganizing during a drill weekend imagine what I did with several months 😉 Really though, I managed to accomplish a lot of reorganizing so it may take you a little while to re-familiarize yourself. If you can’t find something, just ask. Don’t get too comfortable though, you have a drill weekend coming up.
Most importantly, please don’t be hurt if Parker is hesitant when he sees you. He has been calling our iPad Dada for so long it will take him a little time to make the connection to an actual person. He is still that fun loving and adventurous little boy just with a few new tricks up his sleeve. It may take a little while for you to learn his lingo. Don’t worry, there are some things that I still don’t get.
I am sure it will take time to get readjusted. You life has been so different the last few months that even having a bathroom a few steps from our bed and a full nights sleep on a soft bed may seem foreign to you. I’ll make sure to give you some space and time to readjust, just know that I am here for whatever you need whenever you are ready.
Mary & Parker