Motherhood Confessions: Hurry Up And Wait

Today I am officially more pregnant than I have ever been. Since this is only my second pregnancy and I am only 38 weeks and 1 day it’s certainly nothing to complain about. Had we not had a false alarm last Wednesday I probably wouldn’t even be thinking about it as much as I am. Although there has been plenty to do since then, I am just now realizing how much that false alarm affected me and how often I have been watching the clock and wondering when she will arrive.

Yesterday another mom in one of my online moms group posed a question, “If you were going to be pregnant for only one more day what would you take advantage of doing?” The answers really got me thinking about how I have been spending these last few days. While I am trying to get as much done as I can and we are trying to get in some good family time together. I need to stop and enjoy every hiccup, stretch, and poke. This is most likely our last baby and the last time I will ever be pregnant. You quickly forget those moments when you feel your baby moving inside of you, closer to your heart than anyone else will ever be. That bond is the strongest one I have ever encountered and I need to stop wishing it away. I am anxious to meet her but that time will come and we will have years and years of memories together. I decided to make a few promises to myself for whatever time I have left with baby girl growing inside my belly.

I promise…

… to take a few minutes each hour to sit in silence with my hands on my belly and just breathe.
… to stop looking at the clock and take a few risks without worrying about whether or not I will go into labor.
… to let some of the items on my to-do list sit and instead give my baby boy the one on one time he deserves.
… to take a photo of Parker and my belly each day to document them together before they even meet.

Yesterday we decided to put off the weekend chores and head to Baltimore to watch the Blue Angels fly. It was spur of the moment and fantastic. Parker had an amazing time and loved watching all the airplanes fly around. Earlier today I sat in her room and just relaxed with my hand on my belly watching her move around. Rob and I decided to go to lunch when he got home from class and then stopped by my favorite consignment sale to pick up a few things for Parker and baby girl. We went for a walk after dinner and put Parker to bed together. I am not sure what I have in store tomorrow but I am going to make the best of it and enjoy it as much as possible.

So, if you knew this would be the last day you would ever be pregnant, how would you spend it? What would you do?

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