I am excited to take a moment and join in this weeks Five Minute Fridays reflecting on the word open.
I like to think of my self as an open book but recently realized that I spend too much time focusing on all of the wonderful things that happen to us as a family. At first glance it may seem like we have it all together but the truth is we have our moments. Moments when even though the house is completely baby proofed our son falls. Moments when I wonder what the heck I am doing as a wife and mother. Moments when I realize my son has asked me to play at least a dozen times and with each one my response was, “in a minute”. Moments when I question if I am taking the right approach to a tantrum or sleepless night.
The truth is I love to blog and I love sharing our happy stories, adventures, and experiences as parents. But if I want to truly be an open book for you I need to share our struggles, insecurities, and failures. If nothing else to let those who are having a rough day know you are not alone.
So here is are a few things about me that you may not know…
I have this fear of someday writing something that goes viral. I want people to know about this blog but at the same time I am way to sensitive for criticism.
Some days I cry more than I smile. I cry at my inability for self control when it comes to food and discipline when it comes to exercise. I smile every single time I look at my children because they are my biggest accomplishments.
I received a masters degree even though I was told in high school I would never finish my bachelors because of my learning disabilities. After achieving the “achievable” I fell victim to discrimination by a staff member forcing me to leave the profession with no intentions of ever returning.
I was raised with religion but will be raising my children without. I am confident in my decision but am so uncertain how to deal with so many questions they may have growing up.
I know I will never be a perfect mom, but I hope everyday that I can be a good one.